Dystonia

Ugh. Worst experience ever. I had to walk so far from car to lobby at a hospital and then twice that distance to the outpatient registration. I asked for a wheelchair and was denied. I could feel my foot curling. I knew this was coming. I stopped and sat at a waiting room. I leaned and rested on walls.

My right foot curled under hard.

My right hand curled hard.

This, my friends, is mother effing DYSTONIA. It's not a muscle cramps. I have no control. My body thinks it is supposed to be in this position. I don't know when it will relax. I can go to the hospital for some serious medication or wait it out. It's terrible. It feels like hell and my shin and bicep bones feel like foil that had been burning. Weak and on fire.

I hate CRPS! I HATE IT! Come to find out my doc never faxed the order over so I don't even need to be here. I can't leave. I am physically stuck here. I literally cannot walk right now on my nub of ankle. I'm trapped! I am just waiting for wheelchair. I hate this so much. I hate this so so much.

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