Ready to Start Healing

As if I wasn't already 100% sure that the spjnal cord stimulator is going to be the right decision gor me and my family, God sure made sure I knew. My pain levels haven't been this high since I was pregnant and unmedicated. Stress affects pain, and I am sure that closing in on the surgery date, my to-do list pre-surgery, making sure the kids have rides, that the house is prepped, and all that goes with that is definitely not helping. And then, when the pain gets bad, the sleep gets bad... as in I fjnally fell asleep a little after 5am this morning, and my alarm went off at 6:45am. Lack of sleep affects pain. It's the vicious painsomnia cycle (see Painsomnia blog): pain causes no sleep, which causes pain... and so on and so on and so on.

I am grateful for my friends and family checking in on me. It is the only thing keeping me sane. I can't believe today is my last day as a human... let the bionic journey begin! Because, I am ready. I. AM. READY. I am looking forward to surgery pains, because it officially marks the turning point.